Is this because of what your mother said about your weight? If she had not of said that to you would you have stayed on your medications?

Newtus you haven't made any videos in a while. Do you think making some would help you?

I just checked your blog and you haven't written there since November.

I'm just wondering if talking about what your dealing with would help you...

You'd probably receive lots of great, helpful advice

Have you ever considered metformin as an add on to your meds....its an anti diabetes drug but its sort of common name is exercise in a bottle because it changes the energy regulation in you cells...here is an article about it. I don't know why its not more commonly used...its like the pdocs want to completely ignore the metabolic side effects...

Fighting Antipsychotic Weight Gain

What do you value more, weight loss or your life?

Getting off medications can result in a psychotic episode that can KILL YOU. You're already on edge and have been on edge even when you were taking your medicine.

Also, I really hate to say this but you sounded a hell of a lot better when you were on the injections. Sure you still had issues but you sounded better.

There's a reason medications exist, they are there to help. I know, I'm a huge hypocrite and need to work on medication compliance myself, but still... you are risking your life here. Also, you don't want to spiral into an eating disorder. That will just make EVERYTHING worse(voice of experience talking here), and I do mean everything. You'll stop sleeping at night because you're starving, which will then make your psychosis even worse. It's not a good cycle.

Sorry for the blunt post, I'm just worried about you and I would hate to see you back in the hospital and then back on the injections that you hated so much. Why not just take the pills and have some control over your life? I know it sucks to take them, but without them you are in trouble. Every time you've gotten off your meds you've gotten into serious trouble.