thanks for your precaution psychiatric1, i've read up a little on the use of stimulants for off label use... im not saying its the answer, and the medicine probably isnt causing at as much as my lifestyle change... i used to drink everyday, and did everything else that popped up as well but now im sober and like my case manager told me 'i have to learn a new way of life because im changing my life'

i was just thinking that adding ritalin or one of the stimulants would be able to push me off the fence and get me kick started into a new positive chapter of life?

this anhedonia is terrible though and depresses me because im sitting here trying to play my favorite game of all time, my favorite thing and im just not getting "rewarded" by it

my brother mention something else too, that we have to learn how to enjoy things while being sober since we used to alter reality so much to be able to deal with things

i appreciate the kind replies