((((((Potterhead)))))) <- Those are hugs, btw

You are not alone, mija. You are loved. You are a beautiful and an amazingly strong young lady. I mean that. I'm not just saying it. So go back and read that last sentence again.

I can relate with so so much of what you're talking about!
Depressed mom on and off. Awesome dad, but he never wants to talk about problems or feelings. Sexual abuse from when you were younger, but you're just now opening up about it. Having a sister in college that you love to pieces but just don't want to bother with all you're problems. Struggling with self-esteem and worrying that whatever you say will sound stupid and your words will just get all jumbled up. So you are not anywhere near being alone in all of this, my dear.
I am SO proud of you for opening up about your past sexual abuse, though!! You are SO strong because that is SUCH a hard thing to do, but it is definitely freeing to some degree. You are so so strong for talking about it!


Family can be a drag. In fact I just had a therapy session a few hours ago and we spent the entire time talking about family.
If I can offer some advice my friend, you don't have to take it, but I'm going to offer it either way: talk about it with your sister. I more than understand that you don't want to be a drag and you don't want to weigh her down with your problems right now, but trust me. Sisters are amazing when it comes to this kind of stuff. After I first opened up to one of my sisters about some of my other problems, she became my go-to gal. And she still is

Mija, I am here for you absolutely anytime you ever need to talk. You can pm me whenever you want.