I am so sad and miss my family so much. I loved them so much and they loved me. I have to admit, if I knew for sure I would see them again, I would take steps to be with them. But I am afraid all I have left are the memories I haven't forgotten. Oh to live again with those moments and laughs. The hugs, talks and tears with my mother, grandmother, grandfather. The trips to the beach and fishing on the pier with yucky worms. Looking at my grandfather's chisiled face of a real man. People that made me proud to be related to and in their family. I loved them so much. I personally haven't amounted to much. I have no family of my own and lost my chance to be a great mother and grandmother. I missed my chance to have a family, so I am just filled with memories and sadness as I leave everything behind, but still have a small hope they are waiting for me. If only I knew for sure. The pain gets so bad.
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