I hate it to, but yeah most people wouldn't understand, just like my mom doesn't understand why I can be doing a simple task like a small load of dishes and get so distracted it takes me an hour or longer to actually get it done. During that time I am doing it still....so then I get mad because I feel like she is accusing me of not doing what I am doing just because I am slower at it.

But anyways hypervigilance sucks, gives me the wrong idea a lot of times because I think someone is annoyed or frusterated if they look at me...or are thinking bad things about me when its not even happening. Usually if that happens and someone says something I just say I was confused, because I don't want to say 'well I thought you had an issue with what I said or thought you where mad because I suggested this' or whatever. like earlier me and some family members planned to get some beers..then when we left I was going to suggest we stop by the liquor store and one of them looked at me so I thought they didn't have time for that and just wanted to go to the park and leave...but they had no such thought. So we still went and got beers but yeah I mistook a simple look in my direction for 'we don't have time to do that anymore'. Then of course much of the time I am oblivious to things due to autism having PTSD on top of that is confusing.