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Originally Posted by calvinandhobbes
I am new here but I needed to tell this to someone I guess. I'm still going up on my Lamictal, so I'm in an awkward place med wise, I'm only at 100mg right now. The last week and a half I've been getting more and more depressed. I was taking my sleep medicine on Tuesday and I took twice what I was supposed to and had to physically stop myself from taking the rest of the bottle (It's Trazodone so I doubt I could have OD'd anyways) but I just keep considering it though I know its bad and I don't truly want to, deep down. I just kind of want to disappear. I told my parents I was depressed (I left out the bad thoughts) but I'm not sure whether I should call my psychiatrist or what I should do. I see my therapist tomorrow but I'm scared to tell her everything because she might want me to go inpatient. Im only 19, I have college I can't do that and get so behind. I feel trapped and scared.Sorry to unload but I really don't know what I should do.
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So I was honest with my therapist and I was inpatient for 12 days. They changed my diagnosis to Bipolar I and changed my medications, I think for the better. Catching up in school has been hell and it's caused me a few mental breakdowns but I don't think I would be here if I hadn't gone to the hospital, so anything is better than that. Most of my teachers have been understanding. One is a jerk but I have the disability and student services department behind me so he doesn't have much choice as to whether to accept stuff. I still have lingering depression but they're still messing with my meds so that's to be expected. Just an update for anyone who was curious as to what happened.