Thank you so much for opening up and sharing. I wanted to quickly say, as an adopted person, you ABSOLUTELY did the right thing. Bravo. Know that you are not a monster at all. I think we'd all be surprised at how many people go through the same thing -- it's just that we're all trying to "hide" in some way, so we tend to think "others" are better than us. But that isn't true. We've all got baggage. I hope that letting it all out helped. Your story really helped me, as I am in a very similar situation. So, thank you.