I really am terrified of working again. The longest job I have ever had was 2 years and I walked out because I was just exhausted from dealing with the stress and unpredictability of everything. I've been out of there for a few months now and I'm running into some issues.

1) I didn't apply for unemployment because I walked out. How am I going to explain that?!

2) applying for jobs in general is annoying, time consuming and stressful. It just feels like I'm spamming applications and a human isn't even seeing them. Plus that whole situation with me walking out on the last job makes applying fro new jobs tough. How do you even explain that?! To the eyes of any future employer, it looks like I'm flakey and noncommittal. Basically I'm unemployable.

3) My current health insurance coverage I have with my parents is running out this year. Therefore, I need to find a full-time job with decent health coverage. My parents keep letting me know how worried they are about this and it jet stresses me out even more. They want me to get a job. any job. That mentality is what got me at the last sucky job. I don't ever want to just take any and every job that comes along ever again. When I'm stressed I shut down so their nagging just has the opposite effect. These days, I don't even look for a job, I'm just over it now.

4) Fortunately, the job I quit wasn't in the field I have a degree in. The area I want to go into is my passion but the downside is in that field, there is a large component of handling people. While I enjoy actually doing the work, I don't know if I can do people. I'm not assertive enough and that just causes all kinds of issues, I really don't know how to fix that which is bad because I'm going entrepreneurial. I would gladly work for someone else's business as opposed to trying to make it on my own from scratch…but I really am not that good at networking.

So basically, my options as far as work is to do freelance projects. I did get one gig since I've been unemployed but I think I've shot myself in the foot with it. Again, great work but poor people skills, no confidence and I can't handle any kind of stress anymore. I'm not diagnosed with anything so on paper I don't even have an excuse. I think I should just give up and live off of my parents' retirement.