What about being social, but not become closer than necessary to people I'm just going to leave? Whenever I try to get close to people, they use what I've said against me or just betray me in general anyway. As much as I've always wished to have more than a superficial relationship with another human being, it seems like that wasn't meant for me. And having even less time when I go back to school is certainly not going to help.

And that doesn't even touch what I'm supposed to do about dating. I can't even get to a second date after a GOOD first date and I'm afraid that it's because w hen I'm comfortable, I act like myself. So if I were to enjoy the date, they would be thinking, who IS this weirdo?