As I've written several times on his board, my husband's mother passed away a year ago and it's been a struggle for me to understand his grief over the past year and some of the things he does. What seems to hurt the most, however, is how much more he thinks of his mother over everyone else. I'm used to him wearing the pin with her picture on it every day and kissing it when he takes it off and put it on, I'm used to the talking about how she's so much better than anyone else. We've decided to name our first baby (due in July) after her and I'm happy to do that. The baby has her first name for a first name and my middle name for her middle name. Last nite, I happened to notice my husband writing his his journal on his computer (he doesn't mind me reading his journal but I usually don't due to his privacy but I happened to glimpse at it) He was writing about my baby doc appt yesterday and he said that he knows the baby is a beautiful baby just like her beautiful Grandmother who she's named after, right before that he wrote two paragraphs about how wonderful his mother is. It hurts my feelings so much and yet I feel bad that it hurts my feelings. Whenever I talk with him about how I feel he just says I don't understand and names all the people in his family who understand what he's going through but me. What can I do to deal with this? Tomorrow will be ayear to the date of her death. Please help me if you have any advice!