I feel like I´d like to help myself more but I don´t know how and I always run into the chance of making myself MORE anxious when I pick up things... :/

What have you done that helped yourself (besides therapy etc.)

Also, I´m starting to get the feeling that for my therapy, I mainly need to talk things through from the past and process them, instead of, like my T often
initiates talking about the present or asking me what would have helped me back then/made it better? But i feel like I just need just someone to listen to me and help me just talk and talk and talk and talk and make sense of it all until I have understood it and talked it out.

Can I just ask my T do that? I think I have done so multiple times, but somehow we always end up her "way" of her talking