I understand that this section of the forums is for a greater form of loss, but I need advice nonetheless. I've been seeing a therapist and I've posted in various health related forums/sections for help but I still haven't been given any tools to deal with the loss.

Now you are probably asking what have I lost? Well I've lost feeling, and I've lost it in a number of places on my body. I've lost the feeling in my hands, feet, part of the legs and my genitals. The reality is the loss of feeling in my genitals is the hardest to deal with. I feel like a loved one looking over their spouse in a hospital bed hoping that they wake up from a coma.

It's funny because at the beginning of the problem I asked my doctor for help, and at the time I had the concept in my head of getting some kind of physical therapy (no I'm not talking that ). I realized that this was not something that was available. I eventually got referred to a psychiatrist and then a sex therapist. I've spent almost six months talking about my relationship with my spouse and my sexuality. Even when I try to talk about dealing/coping with the loss, the discussion always comes back to intimacy issues.

I still don't know how to deal with the loss. Some people might find it hard to understand because my genitals are still there...they still work (at least partially). It's not like I've lost a limb in an accident. It's not like I can take it off life support and bury it. But I'm constantly reminded that I can't feel them. I guess it would like divorcing an abusive partner only for that partner to move into the apartment across the hall.

Any advice?