I got some news that a father of 4 children is currently in the hospital for a massive heart-attack. I still keep thinking of him and his wife and children. Then I think of a few hours from now and how my test will go. Then I think of the mental things of this week. I don't see my T until Thursday, and then I start to wonder if I'll be okay, to not talk. To just put everything out of my mind. And I wonder if that's even possible. During Yoga, there was no music, and I only focused on breathing, but then things would step in, and putting them out of my mind was harder.

Too much going on at once. I want to stay free of si....but it's so inviting when everything seems to go in the wrong direction. Can I just be free of the pain, madness?