Anxiety vs Paranoia

Today I went to the store. I'm actually starting to get out much more. I was in the store waiting for something and I got hit with some anxiety. I felt uncomfortable, told myself to just breathe and I was able to get through it. Anxiety is tough but its not as bad as paranoia, in my opinion. Anxiety goes away, you can practice social anxiety. Paranoia is something like a chemical imbalance. It takes control of the person physically. I don't think the more I practice to conquer my paranoia , it will still be there. And nobody understands it accept for the person going through it

Like im using this site called moodtracker.com, kve been using it for like a month and today my mind told me that it was some fake site and someone is trying to track my moods. I have an old friend whoo knew someone who was really good with computers. So its like a simpke site anyone can probably design. Has anyone heard of it? Is it just me overthinking? Thats what people with paranoia do, its like being trapped in hell. Your always overthinking situations. My brain cant interpret situations and I hate it. I mean theres no cure. And my family just doesnt get it. They think its some kinda attention game. It makes me look like im trying to break my family up. I wish one day my family will say that they understand its just not addiction. Even writing this im trying to interpret iif someone else read it how they wluld label me.

Im a good person, with a good heart. I was never a fighter. I feel like I keep having to say this because my family just doesnt understand. My mother just cant say that. I mean I feel like they are scared of me. They only see my drug addiction, thats what sucks. They treat me like a drug addict more then someone with depression, trust issues, paranoia. Its really sad that adderall did this to me. If I can save one person from abusing that medication then I did something good.