(((((puzzclaw))))))

I hear what you are saying. I often find that my suicidal ideation is at it's worst when I don't have SI as an option for a coping strategy. It's kind of ironic that we only feel better if we cut, eh? My T tells me that if I can find new coping strategies to do instead of cutting that it might make both the SI urges and the sui stuff less intense. While that's certainly easier said than done, I think it does have some merit.

Thats great you're doing yoga. Maybe music can also be an outlet for you? What helps me get through particularly rough times is to hold on to the fact that I won't always feel this way. It's hard to believe it in the moment when I'm feeling suicidal, but the next day, or next couple of days I'm no longer in that same spot. It's moments like those that I try and hang on to in the moments where it seems like there's no hope. But that's just the depression talking.

If calling a hot line doesn't work, then try and find something that does. Call a friend or a family member. Come on here and reach out to someone in chat or PM. Go to yoga or some type of physical activity. Just do anything that will distract you long enough for the feeling to pass... because it will.

Hang in there, and feel free to message me whenever.
xo Jacq