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Originally Posted by prettybear
I've been feeling depressed for probably a month, probably in part because of my struggling relationship with my now ex-schizoaffective boyfriend.
On Saturday I woke up feeling restless and *had* to get things done. I ended my relationship with my boyfriend (not an impulse move - it was definitely in the works for a couple weeks). I stayed busy all weekend because I felt a physical anxiousness if I wasn't doing something. My mind was moving fast and I struggled to watch a movie (I kept pausing it to do other pointless stuff). The only way I was able to relax was by watching episodes of Hannibal (still pausing to do stuff but I wasn't as restless as during the movie (I have trouble with movies requiring too much time and focus). I was in a pretty good mood yesterday.
Today at work I felt really irritated and angry. I was so annoyed with everyone and felt on edge. My body felt like it was sort of humming with energy.
I've been diagnosed with BPII and I've been told that my hypomania tends to be more irritable. Is it possible to go from depression to hypomania so quickly? I still feel depressed but I have the hypomania irritation, anger, and energy. I constantly feel tired but my body feels so full of energy and I have trouble falling asleep because I sort of kick my legs to get rid of the feeling of "trapped" energy. Could this be a mixed episode?
I'm not on any medications, so it's not a side effect of drugs.
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here in NY (the one in the USA as opposed to other locations) hypomania is like the middle of the road...not depressed (sad/down, suicidal, self injury, inability to concentrate, loss of interest in normal routine activities) and not mania (mood swings, happy, irritable, making decisions without thinking the situation out, not thinking of the possible consequences,.....) but a middle ground where a person actually feels good, that they have a handle on life/their problems...
example when I am manic I am constantly on the move, got to get this and that done, cant sit still, lots of multitasking because I cant concentrate on one thing at a time due to how fast my brain is thinking, how fast my body is reacting to my super fast thoughts.
when Im in depression phase of bipolar I have trouble getting out of bed, no energy, suicidal thoughts, self injury thoughts, just want to be left alone.
when Im in hypomania phase I feel good/healthy and able to concentrate, able to take things one step at a time, able to sit still and complete tasks one at a time, I get a lot done that I want to because Im able to be organized and focused.
is it possible to go from depression to hypomania fast yes people who go through their bipolar phases fast are called rapid cyclers. your treatment provider can help explain this and can help you stop going through the phases so fast if this is what it is, which brings me to your other question could this be a mixed episode...only your treatment providers can tell you what type of episodes you are having and treat you for it.
my suggestion if this continues to bother you contact your treatment providers.