I wanted to go to the temple for the scenery of it all, I just wasn't expected to be talked in joining the LDS Church. I had a question about their angel "Moroni", who doesn't have any background or information of him in my Dictionary of Angels.

In fact, a girl in one of my classes who knows Austin told me he wasn't really happy with our date either.

My plan was to avoid him through the whole weak, but he caught up to me as I was going to my 8th period class and asked me why I wouldn't talk to him (even though I haven't been able to for a majority of the day), and that's when I apologized for being rude saying that I didn't really like the date; that I expected much more from him. I was sorry for assuming how great it would be, and he apologized for not planning it well. It made us both feel bad, but at least he was able to sense my energy, and that tells me that he cares a little bit. I just have the feeling that he was doing it just to be nice and all.

All I really wanted was to be hugged and caressed in the date. I want to feel his touch, to be held. That was all I wanted. However, I just don't think he's the right guy for this. He told me during the date that he was expected a friend of his (a girl from Canada) to show and that he "owed her a strip tease". Yeah that is weird to say that, but I mentioned before on my last post in regards to this, he mentioned that he was obsessed with this one chick who lives miles away from my town of Layton and is expected to move close to here; he wants to see her.

So I can't really love him when he has other girls surrounding him right? He just isn't the right guy.

I'm kind of getting sick and tired of waiting around for someone to find me. I feel like time is wasting away and that it will be too late for me (being the only person that I am) to find love. How am I going to have time for that after I turn 18? I'll have to pay attention to road as I drive for my first time, work away as a CNA, go away to Weber State, learn how to pay the bills, and schedule all of this other crap for my appointments and family affairs. I'm definitely not going to have any time once I'm a nurse.