Really really tired of being in pain. Can't wait till the medication change is finished with my son and he is stable and healthy. I can't stand the meltdowns and the anger. Kids are home all week for spring break and its tuesday and feels like saturday already. Much xanax needed to get through this week. Kids keep asking to go somewhere but when my son can't even behave at home I am definitely not taking him out n public to misbehave. I really hope I make it through this without having a nervous breakdown and honestly a psych ward stay would be like a vacation.