I mainly only went on medication because my thoughts were getting to the point where I couldn't control them anymore. Recently it's been getting a lot better and I realized I was running low so being the idiot that I was I figured it might be a good time to try weening off of it. Which actually worked out pretty well because things have really been on the upswing for quite a while and I feel like am finally at a bit more solid of ground to start attempting getting better without the medication. Though I'm stupid and need to talk to my Pdoc and T about it hahaha (don't worry I'm going to talk about it at my next session, please no one follow my example lol).

Thank you though! It's so terribly hard to stand up to family especially since they do so much for you :/ They really do care but they also want to push me into finishing school. A lot of it I think rests on the fact that I want to finish school because I don't really see all that great opportunity unless I do but I hate every second of it and they figure they might as well try to drag me through since I can't seem to do it myself. But you're totally right about them not fully understanding how to deal with me emotionally and provide good support. And I know if I just don't answer my phone or email they'll probably drive all the way here to make sure I'm okay and I definitely don't want that but my mood also goes completely sour and rotten after talking to them on the phone so it's just a lose lose situation all over!!

I don't know what latuda is like but I will say with setraline I've only been able to break that wall once and cry a lot during a really really powerful movie called Colorful (which I recommend). Other than that even my best attempts and trying to cry have failed I hope your's passes!

Thank you for responding I hope tomorrow shares it's sunshine with you!