I want to be sexually free, I hate being a guy stuck in my scenario desperately trying to leave or die, because this **** is ****ing hell. I want to stop staring at walls all day expecting to waste my time. I can't do anything for me it has to be her way and her benefit or no benefit if she did something for herself for once and not let anyone else do things for her constantly her entitlement has pushed me over the edge. I can't have sex anymore, till I leave. It's not an issue of be abstinent again for awhile, but dammit it will be if she continues this path of wrecking my life. I hate being me, I want to never ever come back here. First day I leave here, I'm going into an orgy because leave me alone can I be free to be myself sexually and make my own choices safely bout it. I'm ****ing 20 years old, quit treating me like a child and my dad like a child and my sister, you are the child not me. I'm transgender, I am a grown woman on the inside with a body of a man and want to be in a physical emotional relationship with women, and you are not apart of my life anymore.