I quite often take a while to figure out what to wear. I put something on and it feels wrong. So I change. Repeat a few times... But there isn't that much time really (since I have to be out the door at half past six in the morning). Mostly... It is about my wanting to feel comfortable. And to feel 'respectable' in the sense of looking nice, yeah. Because there is so much %#@&#! inside me. If I look pleasant enough on the outside then maybe it will make it more manageable.

I don't tell him this, of course. But I have talked to him a bit about how my body feels alien sometimes. Only I mistook it for a thought that occurs alongside it sometimes 'how did I get to be associated with this body?' and then he had to listen to a ramble on how that question doesn't even make sense and when he said that didn't matter I glared at him and lectured him on Descartes or somesuch.

Sigh.

But yeah. For me it is part of self soothing / taking care of myself too. Therapy is hard. And often I feel like I'm fairly disgusting. So looking nice (which is about the best I can manage) helps that. a little. i understand.