I'm sorry to hear you are going through such a difficult time, denial is quite a normal thing we go through. We have choices, one that most people make is to lose the denial,seek treatment and stick with a plan, leading "normal" lives. Some choose to go into denial mode,refuse treatment and be miserable, including making others too. Refusal of treatment is so sad, it wastes years of one's life that could of been good if they only would choose a plan and follow through. One choice takes patience and time the other plan wastes precious time.
You are not unique, is something a former T told me, and I say that to others, you are not unique, thousands of people suffer and deal with this disorder as well as other disorders, it's your choice, whatever you decide, I wish you lots of luck.
Take care