Yes, the clonidine has helped with the bad dreams. Unfortunately, I'm already freaking out with regard to my weight gain

... like I said... I have allot of emotional energy tied up in my weight. And, on top of this weight gain, I pigged out for lunch today!

If I weigh more than 150 pounds tomorrow [don't know what that would be in stone(?)] which is certainly possible... I'll REALLY freak!

God... I have so many problems... I have problems I don't even recognize that I have until I come up against them!

Maybe I have some kind of weird eating disorder too... on top of everything else... oh boy

... I'm starting to get depressed.

I need to go wash dishes...