I am up to my ears in pain from hurts and some not so helpful decisions. I think each of my family members have contributed . Things that feel rejecting create big time anger in me. I unfortunately have been trying to keep everyone happy. I try so hard to be nice and continually good . I don't tell them how I feel so it builds up. I feel like I have rocks inside me. It seems too late and bad timing to try now. I keep trying to let it be behind me but I get reminded and it all pops back up. Really caught and stuck and people are coming this week end . I am not sure I have pretending left in me. Don't want to ruin anything either.