Exactly. Right now I feel that what they are telling me to do, well, it's like telling someone who's relearning how to walk to just go out and run a marathon. Whoa! One step at a time! I'm already pushing myself to do things like get out of bed, get dressed, eat something, pick up things around the house. If this was just a matter of willpower, I would have never even taken time off of work! But, it's not me just not "wanting" to do things, or being lazy, or negative. Ugh. Sometimes I think that people throw out these suggestions to make themselves feel better.

What's ironic is that when I tell my therapist, my doctor, or other people what I've tried/am trying, like the things that I bought to help my insomnia, and changing my diet and taking supplements, they say I am trying too hard, or that I "don't really need to do that." I kinda got fed up and am taking things in my own hands, learning about nutrition, and how our diets are deficient in some crucial nutrients. I feel like a guinea pig already, so why not try that? Of course, I'm still taking my meds and everything, I didn't abandon that, but what I'm doing isn't working and I need to try something else. I just feel like the health care community doesn't really understand and they are really just throwing solutions at the problem to see what sticks.