Are you using medicine? Maybe not the right stuff? Your thinking sounds like mine without medicine, so I ask.

I'm sorry. :-\ I don't know what else to say, but I understand, and hope something comes along to break through a bit and offer some hope.

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Matthew 11:28
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.</font color=green> Sounds good...