Hey Jean 17,

I am sorry that you are feeling under the weather. I share your feelings of frustration as to the cycles of ups and downs and the longing for a better life over and over again.

Truth is, the idea that we can ever attain a perfect life is impossible. I don't in anyway want to discredit your misfortune in the form of unhappiness, stress, grief or personal agony... I only mean that learning to live with this illness and any other illness is a daily struggle. It is a constant yearning for more understanding and awareness that allows us to understand the inevitable nature of the cycles that we go through. Regardless if someone is diagnosed or not - every single human being has cycles. Unfortunately for us Borderline sufferers - it can be much more intense - and the cycles more sporadic and uncertain... Thus, we feel alone and left to fend for ourselves...

It sounds like maybe you are in need of some hope. Unfortunately I can only offer words...

Just remember that you are not alone. There are hundreds, thousands - millions of people that need our help. People, such as yourself - who have been on medication, who have been through the psychiatric field and been through the treatments and the process of grabbing out for any positive reinforcement on our pursuit of happiness... You used the word, "we," a lot in your first post on this thread - and that is correct.

You said, "I don't understand why we are doing really good one day and the next we start spiraling down."

We all understand that feeling. We are here for you. We are individuals whom share unfavorable attributes. We are human. And the human experience includes all the highs, the lows, the extreme exhilaration's of joy and success - the turmoil surrounding failure and loss - and everything in between. What goes up, must come down - we just have to learn from our past experience and the experience's that other's share with us - so that we can prepare for the storm that inevitably is right around the corner just poking it's head out and betting in all it's chips - that we will be vanquished the next time we meet...

I say no. I say we should stick together and ride the waves - use it's power to empower both ourselves and others.

Thanks,
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