Hi, TomRiddle, and welcome to Psych Central! We folks here are not professionals, so we can just give you our laypeople's view.

Off hand, I don't see a "borderline personality disorder" sign lighting up from what you have said. We'll have to see what other folks think, though.

I suggest you go back into therapy now that you are more in touch with these feelings and concerns. I have found therapy to be very helpful. There's no reason to go through life feeling miserable, especially when we can work on the issues that make us feel that way. All the problems you mention can be helped.

What say you other folks here?