It sounds like you are a person who has more trouble connecting than the average person. A lot of us at PC have that kind of difficulty. For some people, it comes naturally . . . the connecting. Some people were just born to connect. I wasn't that way for me, and it sure sounds like you, too, find that real challenging. So I guess it all comes down to how hard are you willing to try. If you think it is unfair that you should have to put way more effort in than what a lot of other people do, and you won't put up with that unfairness, then I would say that your situation on connecting is probably hopeless.

Interpersonal skills, like any skill, has to be learned. You learn by trying. That can be very hard. I don't think it is really easy for anyone. Sometimes, when we watch other people and we think they have it easy, it's because we do not really see, know and appreciate just how much hard work they put into it.

We see someone with friends, and we say: "Oh, look - that person is always surrounded by support and friendship and it just comes so easy for them." We're not seeing the hours they spend putting up with others, who at times are hard to tolerate (which everyone is now and then). We don't see all that they put into building relationships, like how they risked rejection and got some rejections, as they were building their network of people whom them have in their lives.

Some people do decide that it is just not worth it. Maybe you've already decided that. You have that right. But if you are asking the readers of this thread, if they think it is impossible for you to make connections, then I think any of us has to tell you we don't see it as impossible. I do think it probably is very hard for you, and you've gotten tired of trying. I can understand that. Only you can decide if you're just to tired and discouraged to keep trying.

If you do decide to try, you are guaranteed to have some major disappointments. Some people are out to use you. Learning how to not get used is a process of gaining experience. It's really hard. Is it worth it? I can't say, if it will be worth it for you. Maybe, maybe not. You have to decide.