I start thinking about what I'm going to wear to therapy a week in advance, and plan what I wear the rest of the week accordingly - can't wear that outfit too close to Saturday, because then it might not be clean in time. Since I go to therapy on Saturday, and it's a long drive to get there, that's usually the only place I'm going that day too. I've been distressed because I needed to go back to my old house after therapy and clean (we're talking 2.5 hours to therapy, 4 hours to the old house, and 4 hours back home from the old house), so I needed to dress casual, and that wasn't what I wanted to wear. To further complicate things, I'm not comfortable sitting for a long time in jeans, so I never wear jeans if I'm driving a long way.

I wasn't always like this. With past therapists, I didn't think about what I wore at all - showed up in whatever I did chores in that day (I was a SAHM back then and chores meant milking the goats, ...). The secretary commented on odor at least once. I really just had no awareness. Actually, I think that I thought I was invisible. I didn't figure that anyone would ever actually see me. I also had a tendency to wear big, loose, baggy clothes in layers upon layers. That T commented when I started paying attention to what I wore, and when he dismissed me from therapy (before I was ready) he told me that I looked good, and that seemed to be part of why he thought he could drop me.

My current T comments on what I wear sometimes too. I try to wear something that feels like 'me.' I wasn't aware of it, but it turns out I'm comfortable in camoflage colors. I wore lots of browns and off-greens that blend in. She noticed that and recognized that I was trying to disappear. So I started making an effort to wear more color. What you wear to therapy can have a lot to it.