That was quite thought provoking…

I have to say that this is something that I struggle with quite a bit. And I can't say that I can get (or know how to get) my needs met.

You asked so many questions, I don't want to bore people by answering them all, but I think it may be an interesting different perspective?

After all the experiences you have had, good and bad, do you expect to be loved? No. Do you think you can love? I think I can, but it will only be rejected; no one wants it. Is the world a safe or threatening place for you? Threatening. Do you make sense? Not at all. Do others? Sometimes I think they do and then I realize that they don't. Can you learn from a mistake, and gain control over your circumstances? Usually, yes. Are you able to get all these needs met on your own, or do you constantly lean on others to do it for you? At this point in my life I have to constantly lean on others…it's quite depressing. Do you put others' needs before your own too much? I can in some circumstances. Conversely, do you think you have to go it alone, because it "is weak or futile to ever ask for help or reach out to anyone"? I often feel like this as well. I have financial support while I'm in school, but I feel it's futile to ever ask for emotional support. And, is the world trustworthy? NO NO NO. And no. How do you get your needs met if it isn't? Through investing all my time in school/future career/games/books etc. and eventually I was to own cats because animals are much more capable of showing and accepting love than human beings.


"Am I" (do these feelings originate inside me, not you? YES. Do I have responsibility for them, then? YES) Ok, I agree with you here.
"Able to get" (do I have the intelligence, capacity and right to affect my world? I have the intelligence and maybe capacity, but not the right.)
"My own needs" (can I do it myself, without totally relying on you? NO. Are these needs personal and valid, do I have the right to want them and stand up for them? NO.)
"Met?" (this implies finality, closure, security. Is there a way this can really happen? Do I expect, sooner or later, to succeed with a rational degree of effort? MAYBE?)

And apologies for responding with my own thoughts if that wasn't welcome or appropriate...