I undergone this IQ test and I scored really high.
This is not a brag, in fact I feel a little bad about it. I didn't know where to post this.
It's a feeling that I have when I think they put the standard higher. After I could do all the stupid and dumb things and I could just think, ok, I did this because I'm stupid, and I really do lots of dumb and stupid things so I have the right to think like this.
This logical reasoning serves as an excuse from myself to me, and maybe for the others. This doesn't change the vision that I have about myself, but it raises that pressure. I'm smart in somethings, I'm not smart in others. So logical thinking, when I do something really dumb, beside than desappointing myself, I feel like I cheated and that I'm cheating everyone that believes me to be smart, including that test. I know that, there are days and days, subjects and subjects, so I don't have to be smart all the time.
But if I had allways see myself as a gifted person that had lots of excuses to be dumb and if I believed myself to be this way. I feel bad in having a peace of paper saying the opposite. I will probably burn it.
But my doc knows the results, so I will measure even more every word I say, and I will punish myself even more for disapointing her, for showing I'm not that smart, because I'm not!