Dear T,

I don't know if it's because of my lack of control of the situations around me right now or something I am unaware of but something in session yesterday made me feel terribly attached to you. I know that we have formed some type of bond and maybe some sort of relationship but what I feel today feels more like an "I don't want to lose you" ache although you are not going anywhere. I think I'm honestly truly beginning to see that you are my "safe" person and maybe this is the last hurdle before I fully let my guards down but the amount of "whatever this feeling is that I feel right now" is bursting inside of me. I find myself forcing away tears that have welled up because of this unexpressed, hard to conceive, unknown to me emotion I feel. It's making me feel sad and yet safe all at once and I don't know what that means.

Anyways, I wish I could tell you these things instead of posting them on here but I'm not ready for that. Still, thank you for being consistent and showing me love.

- Teal