What is this trigger icon? An X? I can't tell.

I'm not manic. I am sleeping, I am actually kind of tired right now, am eating properly (as properly as you can when you rely on food banks), do not feel sped up, or omnipotent, or euphoric. I'm not spending my life savings on boxes of crayons, and I'm not writing 20 limericks in 2 days (I did that last time).

I am, however, kind of judgemental right now. And people are making me angry. Like, I just don't bother any more because I feel like they're too stupid to bother with.

I don't feel like I'm better than anyone, but I'm spoiling for a fight and just want to tell people how stupid they are. God, it seems like everyone is so stupid. I don't feel superior though, I'm probably pretty stupid too. I'm sure I annoy people.

Obviously I'm not going to say anything, even with the people who aren't my friends, I don't want to hurt feelings. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings, that's not the point. That's why I'm sitting here not doing anything except posting on a messageboard where I am relatively anonymous.

I feel like grumpy cat, except I'm not even grumpy, not sad, just normal. I'm not manic, I'm not depressed. Oh god, is normal me a huge jerk? I hope not - I've never felt like this before.