Yes, exactly. Scary, isn't it? Yikes. I just hope that I don't hurt someone, trying to be a therapist.

I've applied for doctoral programs before and didn't get in, which is how I ended up where I am, working on a master's degree. I'm hoping that it will be favorable. I've just been calling my faculty about early practicum, and I could start in May or June. But do I really want to do that already? Am I ready for it? I'm not so scared about starting a doctoral program if I get in, because that would give me more time to work on my own garbage before being out there on my own as a therapist. But I wonder if I'm too old for this too, and if anybody would consider giving me a chance (that's an old worry but still here).

I do function in work and school settings (most of the time, anyway). My T doesn't understand why I won't apply those skills to myself. I don't understand either. If I could, I'm sure I would do it. Don't you think?