hey sorry just saw this. My current dxs: generalized anxiety disorder, social phobia, major depressive disorder. i also have obsessive & intrusive thoughts consistent with OCD, no compulsions though. I have a bit of body dysmorphia, but that's low down on the list of things i worry about..

I basically spent freshman year of college super miserable, and realllly homesick, so i think my mom picked up on that. finally one day i just broke down and told my mom how sad i was.. i didn't feel safe being on my own. Bc i was going to school in Massachusetts but my fam lives in Jersey, we decided it was best i take some time off. i took a semester off and did a whole bunch of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. this helped a bit, but only up to a point. I decided to transfer colleges and thought that with a change like that, i could potentially be okay. welllll that's not what happened. I then spent 2 years at Boston U. at the end of my 2nd year i really fell apart. my best friend and i got in a HUGE fight and she moved out. 2 months later my bf dumped me. so i was all alone in this apartment up in boston. at this point in time i was also weaning myself off of Klonopin. i got HORRIBLE withdrawals. shaking, loss of appetite, super panicky. one night after binge drinking (i do the same as you. binge drink, then feel horrible), actually it was after a cinco de mayo party we had haha, i had the worst anxiety attack i've ever had. usually marijuana can stop my panicky-ness, but even ripping a bong didn't help. LUCKILY i had an appointment with my psychiatrist that day. i told her that i felt horrible & have never been this bad. because i drink and smoke a lot of weed she suggested i go to a rehab. i had the doctor call my mom, because i was too ashamed of telling her any of this :/

but, turns out rehab wasn't right for me.. i was the only one there whose main problem was mental illness. basically, i was a depressed pothead sitting with a bunch of chronic alcoholics and heroine addicts. so i came home for a bit and saw my primary psychiatrist, she recommended a 4 week intensive in-patient Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) program at a hospital in Connecticut. i went, ended up staying for 6 weeks, and have been doing DBT since (this was last summer). DBT has helped enormously. lemme know if you have anymore questions, sorry i kind of was just rambling on.. i'll remember to check this thing tomorrow. Good luck