I'm not depressed. Most of the time I enjoy having free, unstructured days where I can just do random things. But right now it's like I have no motivation. I don't really feel like doing anything. I try to lie down for a bit, but don't really want to do that either.

I have an exam today, which I've just accepted I will do good or bad and no longer have control over that. I also have an essay due for the same class, so I'm working on that because I'm better at essays so I have more control over that mark.

I'm having such a hard time doing anything though. I feel so apathetic. I don't feel depressed. I'm not sad, or hopeless, or suicidal, or anxious, or most of the usual things I feel when I'm depressed. I just have a lack of motivation. It's not even a lack of enjoyment, if I do something I'll eventually enjoy it. I just feel so stuck.

I've tried various ways of scheduling my day, all the way from really strict to much looser. I haven't been able to make that work yet.

Any suggestions?