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Old Apr 18, 2014, 10:37 AM
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I'm not a teenager and haven't been for almost a decade. As I get older I get more irritated. 3yrs ago I decided to see a T and try to get rid of the anger so I font always feel on edge. All she's told me is I'm really depressed and have anxiety. She says there's 2 types of anxiety 1) u cry and become very emotional 2) become extremely aggressive and in some cases violent. Guess which she says I am.

I'm not denying the anxiety or depression. But I feel there is more to it and if there is and it can be controlled so I don't wind up with felony assault, then I need what will help. Right now I've been able to contain with no legal problems but I don't know how long that's going to last. Especially since when ppl piss me off my first impulse is to ground and pound.

I'm little only 5'3" so most don't see me as a threat. Especially men who are usually a lot bigger than me. But they piss me off and I don't see anything except me take the down and throw fists. At pts like this I have to turn away and walk. Get as far from their instigation as I can and hope they don't follow. I just feel this all consuming rage simmering below the surface. One minute I'm fine maybe even smiling and then in a blink they set me off and I want blood as retribution.