Solepa, your story made me cry! It is just so unbelievably horrible and I know only people who have experienced something like this know just how unbearable it is to have this kind of history.
I feel I could have written some of this. My own story started when I was five years old and my father burnt big parts of my body. Since the age of six he would come into my bedroom every night, at the age of 8 my mother joined in. They were both sadistic so they always made sure there was blood. They left me for dead many times, I became pregnant from my father at age 13 and he took money from other people so they could have their fun with me and make videos of me. I left home when I was 19 and ever since I feel I have to be on the run because he is still obsessed with me. I am in my early thirties now.
We both know, how a story like ours affects us, and how incredibly difficult it is to not believe the lies we have been told. To deal with the pain and the scars it has left us with. Our story will always remain part of us, it will never go away.
But we can find some comfort in the fact that we have survived, that we are now able to find what makes us happy, what makes us smile. I hope you can find these moments of relief and happiness.
And I want to tell you how sorry I am that you had to experience this! And if you ever feel like talking, I want to be here for you and listen.
You are in my heart, Solepa and I'll keep you in my prayers from now on.
Much, much love,
Amelia
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*** Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will.***
Mahatma Ghandi
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