I have 4 days off right now, and I'm going to try to go without Saphris to see how I feel. I don't mind if I get hypomanic, but I don't want to get depressed. If things start to get bad I will restart it right away. I need to be OK on Tuesday when I go back to work, but I have a few days to experiment with my brain chemistry. I want to be on as small amount of meds as possible. I don't mind my lamotrigine and wellbutrin, but I don't really want to be on an AP anymore. I haven't been hypomanic in over 2 years, but I've been depressed off and on during that time. I've probably been depressed about half the time in the last 2 years. Right now my mood is stable. It feels like I will never be hypomanic again, and I miss that feeling. I'm hoping that reducing meds will give me some of that high back.

I skipped my dose last night, and I still managed to sleep OK, only woke up briefly a couple of times. I'll see if I sleep tonight, because when I've tried to stop it before I've had pretty bad insomnia. Tonight will be night number 2. I'll see how it goes.

I have to write a paper and study this weekend, but I have no other plans really. Hopefully this will work out well.