Hi Aqsam - So I just read some of your earlier posts and now have more of a picture, so here is where I discovered some of your many strengths. Please don't hate yourself. Maybe try to give yourself a bit more distance/space from this relationship for a while - and get involved again in some of those activities (such as photography, writing poetry, dance - actually why not try more of the arts? In this way you can meet other people). You describe yourself as having been outstanding.