I actually admire you on the virgin thing. Think of it as a blessing and know that by you holding onto it, it is leading you towards finding the 'right' person for you. I look back on my life and wish I didn't rush into all of that, because frankly, instead of giving me life-giving energy to embrace life, it ended up making me more and more vulnerable and losing
The essence of who I was. Men ended up not being content with what I had to offer and always ended up pushing me more and more with things I just was not emotionally capable of handling. It became a vicious cycle of them demanding this or that and my self-esteem kept becoming more and more eroded. I felt like an object more than a woman. I eventually came to resent sex altogether, because it became more about their desires and not on a level of mutual respect.

I'd say you have a lot to live for.....hang in there and hold out for the right person who will bring you the life-giving energy and love you deserve. Hugs