I just finished reading 'darkness visible' - great book!! The scary thing is I identified completely with his descent into depression - it paralleled mine. Weird how depression seems so similar. The description of being suicidal, of having fuzzy thoughts, of feeling hopeless, of being mute and immobile, and staring blankly without thinking, at the ceiling. All was soooo familiar. It's scary when you feel out of control, like you're losing your mind - like your mind is trying to kill you rather than help you... Thanks for the recommendation!!!