Had a lovely evening with friends and family. Had dinner out. H told me I was driving home as he wanted a drink. I was ok with that but the verbal abuse on the way home was a shock. In front of our kids. It went on and on and the worst thing is that I don't shout back - I just take it. I know what he says is wrong (that I am lazy, don't clean the house or cook, don't work hard enough, toss it off while he works, spend too much money) he is so controlling. I feel such an idiot for letting him shout at me. He wasn't drunk. He works very long hours and is stressed about work but that isn't a reason. Why do I put up with it. I feel so hurt and can't stop crying. Everyone asleep but I can't go to bed.