(((( jin ))))

sounds as if mum has her own demons to deal with and facing your demons is something she isn't able to do. I'm so sorry your mum isn't there for you with strength and love like you would like her to be. But we, here have lots for you

Like cajun said, you need to take care of #1 right now. Your mum is a big girl and will do what she needs to do. You have no control over her.

Hang in there g/f......ride the waves and remember to breath

*Gentle Hugs*
J