I know new meds often need more than a month, but I was already on anti depressants and I have been on these ones before and usually I get a bit hyper initially.

I'm really conscious of not behaving in the way I usually would and how everything feels like too much effort and it's scary, especially as I have three young children. I wish I had friends and family around.

The children will be back at school in a few days and I haven't even got their uniforms sorted out.

I feel guilty about asking for a foster care placement for them but I am also relievers that the pressure will be off me when it is sorted out. I don't know this stranger I have become and I don't much like her.

I don't understand where all this has come from. In theory I do with having several bereavements and my youngest daughter has a sensory disorder ,dyspraxia and ADD.