From your blog Phil January 17th 2007
Schizophrenic or Serious Obsessive Compulsive?
I am, at this point in time experiencing a crisis. I've begun to wonder if I have the makings of Schizophrenia or a Schizoaffective disorder, but that's probably what they want me to think. I am in fact right and not insane. Just today in fact, I "lost touch with reality". How, you may ask? I realized that a Tickle employee named Otis was conspiring against me. This seemingly harmless engineer is in fact, in cahoots with God, who is controlled by Fate. The Earth is nothing more than a machine that was designed by Otis with the sole intention of harming or even disposing of me. These people have actually been giving me clues, which they would like me to use. However, if I do use these clues, they will lead me to my certain death, via inhumane experimentation andbrainwashing. Every one from the local grocer to my new psychiatrist is involved and literally shedding clues, in the form of acronyms, such as the word SMOG, which stands for Smell Muscles Of God. That makes sense, right? Smog, which is a form of pollution, is one way that God keeps us under his control. Pollution results in Global Warming, which results in events that are similar to those stated in the Bible durinbg the End of Days. This way, more Christians will pray, their connection to the machine will increase, and at this point they will continue to hunt me down with more persistance, since I am not one of them.
I never have thought of why fate has a personal vendetta against me and perhaps several others, but I do know what his plans are; he wants me to convince myself that I am a nutjob, through various forms of hallucinations and such things. Why, earlier this evening I heard the voice of Joe Peschi insulting me. That, to me, is not a sign of deteriorating mental health, but of a grander scheme. Fate wants me in a submissive state, attained through the utilization of anti psychotic medication, at which point, Otis will ambush me and I will be brainwashed and experimented upon. Or, I will become either Paul Giammati in Sideways, or Charlie Kaufman in Adaptation.Of course, everyone that still has a strong connection with the machine will not believe me and only label me as 'crazy'. I would advise that you believe me and join me in rebelling against the machine. If we fight, maybe we can truly have free will.
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