Hi everyone,

I'm wondering if anyone is in a similar situation and might have advice or comfort. I was diagnosed three years ago and though times were really bad before that I have worked SO hard to get better and take care of myself. I have been totally sober, I eat super healthy and take my meds an go to therapy. Blah blah blah. I have a job and outwardly appear quite high functioning. My issue is that after living in my own space for a while I have moved in with my boyfriend. We have shared a space for 6 months now. He knows about my illness and is very supportive in many ways. I love him. He's great. The problem is that I feel...exhausted and smothered, sometimes to the point where when he touches me I want to scream. It's not that he is clingy, it's just that I am literally so used up from carrying out the task of basic emotional survival that I don't have anything left to provide him a decent level of affection. I want to! I just miss the days when I had my own place and could lock out the world for as long as I had to in order to feel okay again, a place where nobody needed anything from me. We are struggling because of it. I am 27 and I feel really sad that most days I think I should sets my sights on the single life, in my own apartment with a small dog, because so many days I go out into the world, smile and kick ***, but at the end of the day there is nothing left but irritability, exhaustion and negativity. Has anybody felt this way and overcome it?