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Old Apr 19, 2014, 11:09 AM
Anonymous33505
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Originally Posted by Ladyofshallot View Post
I followed your post regarding this in "New Member" Intros - I do not remember reading that this came down 4 months ago... I'm guessing you do not have a professional to talk to. Has any of your thinking changed in 4 months? Have you been able to do anything for yourself to start to heal? If you do not have a professional to talk to...you really need one.

If you do not have access to one...maybe someone here can suggest if there is a forum that can help - W/the Doc of this site? Do not get me wrong, I have seen some great suggestions posted here and from your post in the new member intro forum. This is a great place to get it out, get support and have others to empathize with you...but you have to start helping yourself.. a little piece at a time. If you are thinking of suicide still -you have to have a professional help you through this.

Not long ago suicide was in my thoughts. I do have a psychiatrist...he did have to change my medication a little, I had to restart therapy and I joined this site. I do not have health insurance - I go to a place that has a sliding scale for income because I could not afford to go the regular route. The medication blocked those chemicals in my brain that were putting me over the edge. My problems are still here...but I am able to function and work on solutions. I feel totally different than I did 2 months ago. You still have to go through the stages of losing some one you loved..it is like a death. Let us know how you are doing.
Thanks for caring...means a lot especially when i am not proud of what i'v done....i cannot get professional help, it's an illicit thing....i know i need to engage my mind with a job....but that's going to be very hard to come by...i go crazy with uncertainty at times...i feel abandoned and worthlesss most times and so very let down by that one person who meant so much...while he just walked away....just like that...why do you think he did it? I don't think i can rework my marriage....it had not had anything in it for a long time now...