Hi p1994, as you know your situation better than me I'll go with those closest to you might not be the best to offer you help/support with what you're finding yourself doing again.
But do you think they can at least be a little helpful if you tell them just a little of what you're feeling e.g. "Look I'm finding things a bit hard to cope with at the minute and would appreciate it if you'd........". Maybe there's just something they could do to help day-to-day???
With the SI though perhaps you could tell the teacher you'd managed to open up a little to?? And if anything (to begin with?) you needn't say exactly how bad it is if it helps. I'd say they're probably more familiar with SI in general now-a-days so they should have an idea, at least, on how to best support you. Just something to think about???
And, I know it probably seems like too much effort right now, but if you could chase up your psych.....??
Beats waiting around, which could take who knows how long, and I'm betting some days are seeming pretty endless to you as it is?
The life's a b!tch bit, you know I can see how you feel that way with everything going on for you. And there can be periods where everything seems unbelievably unfair, where you're just waiting for the next thing to go wrong but that's just it: they may only be periods. And once you get some real help with what you're going through then that's when you can start offsetting the balance a bit. Either by just feeling better, by bringing/having more positive things in your life or by letting more of the not so good things just "go over your head" a bit more.
And you probably don't want to think about this now, but once you're feeling a bit better you're going to have more of an opportunity to love again, you really do have plenty of time ahead to make that opportunity real. Often it can take time to find "the one".
Really glad you're still hanging with us on here though!!!
Alison